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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

1:01 AM

totally busted what's my L1R2B2 for my prelims like what the hell 23 points please where the fuck can i go to like to do some stupid engineering course.what the fuck why didnt i put in more efforts during my june holidays and september holidays fuck it i seriously feel so dumb now i'm currently like what the hell last in class i think.what the hell i even got a talk from both my chemistry and my math teacher today.thank you so much please.urghhhh i didnt even know how to do my chemistry mock practical today call me dumb or call me literally dumb damn i really just wish to actually just give up now.can somebody please tell me is all these really worth it or am i just totally screwing up my life.ahhh i need a miracle in order for me to turn around and finally get good grades please.*slaps self* time to wake up and start actual mugging no more slacking around thinking life just rocks when in fact shit happens practically all the time which totally sucks.ahhhh gosh it was even more depressing when just now both my chemistry and math teacher actually came up to talk to me about pulling up my socks as if i am not wrong i am totally the last in class.ahhhh damn i have got to start to like to study.yea man studying is like omg so cool please.fuck i feel depressed now what a big blow.fuck it i so got to start mugging like fuck.study ya'll bitches!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

12:25 AM

didnt go to school yet again today and yes my friends i really do have an uber good excuse.appears to be such that i may have insommia or however you spell it but yeah i never seem to be able to have that perfectly good sound sleep so that is what i think that triggered my bloody headache and i woke up with a really terrible one today.damn i was not even there to collect my prelim papers though technically i think i sort of screwed up quite badly on it man really do wish i did not play so much and not lose my focus before my prelims.anyway xijie came over yesterday for our supposed study session.well it was pretty fun i guess did more checking out of music than anything else yea just found out that i have some songs which i have been looking for for what seems like forever but it turned out that it is already in my ipod.yes i know that was rather dumb but sorry cant help it if i did not know the title of it.anyway just receieved a message saying that my alteration of my stuff are ready.hurray i want to buy more jeans i want another pair of true religion!would any nice kind soul be willing to treat them to me.pretty please.HAHA.well my tickets for my end of year trip has been confirmed thank god though technically i really somehow feel like staying back home as i am so going to miss my hoochies but owells i have not seen my god family for like 12943645719 years.ski trip sounds uber fun as i really have not tried skiing at all.man what am i to bring when i am going to be living in god know what temperature weather.ahhhh anyway gonna go back to my mugging i so have got to bounce back from my terrible prelim results the big o is in 41 days.start panicking fools yes we are so literally screwed.need i repeat that fact.JEANS PLEASE!!!!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Sunday, September 24, 2006

1:29 AM

boy has my head been spinning for the past few days though technically the doctor said that there was nothing wrong with me but man it really does send my head spinning like crazy so much so that at times i just totally blur out from my surroundings yes my dears it can get that bad at times.well last day foe me to finally enjoy before the whole buzz of the big o starts yet again all the crazy insane mugging that just drives you totally mad.owells i really got to start pulling up my socks guess i did rather badly this prelims even though i dont exactly need to get back my results i already roughly know how well or should i say how badly i did.damn i am so starting to regret the fact on not studying harder well i guess i still have about one month plus to quickly brush up and make sure that i understand every single nitty gritty detail though i must say that i just really do not have the self control to just put down everything else and just concentrate on my studies.alrights this so suck man please somebody just come and refrain me from doing anything else other than to study.i must i must i must have self control note to self.anyway my insane wierd addict for cult jeans is coming back yet again.sigh my mom says i have no control over my wierd spending and obsessions.let's see guess bags and cult jeans equals extreme love.i love i love i love them so just shut up and stop telling me about how expensive they are.currently i errrs well a number pairs of cult jeans and i want more.just bought one yesterday in fact and you know what people i wanna get many many more.yea babyy it's called living life wonderfully.well any takers on sponsers for jessica's jeans.im kinda short of money now so sponsers for my shopping spress are very much welcome (: babyy i LOVE you!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, September 21, 2006

4:50 AM

i just read one of the most beautiful post ever in danielle's blog.i was just like o my wow that was just so nice.gosh!anyway stayed at home the first half of the day.why?prelims are over and i had no paper today.the beauty of having lesser subjects though technically it is also a bit of a loss for me as i have to work really hard of my remaining the this case.met up with xijie just now to catch little man yeapp should watch it though technically i would not really rate it five stars or whatsoever as in my opinion it is three stars but yea it would definitely brighten up your day with it's laugh out loud jokes.coffee is just so splendid there is just so many things to take about while just sipping a nice cuppa frap or latte.seriously spending six bucks for many hours of lovely stories and heart to heart chats is just priceless.i really miss the good old days just hanging out with my babes just talking nonsense and bitching about others loves it we really need to do that sometime soon guys i miss you.anyway hope everything is alright for you yunxuan and no worries babe i will always be there for you when ever you need me.guy watching date soon?i want more eye candies.yes i know my dear hot stuff is gone in i have no idea where so i neede new ones someone accompany me please please pretty please.anyway someone is really getting on my nerves talk about parroting.this is just totally insane.copying what others say and just dressing like them,talking like them and even acting like them it's just as though you have a clone.seriously i think she really needs to change as though i know she does not know her this weakness but seriously many people notice it and they actually hate it.come on you dont have to literally act like someone in order to fit in and just act as though you know everything which we are referring to and even claiming you know stuff about it.it's like nowadays even hanging out with such is starting to get awkward even though we used to be close friends but such can just be so irritating.give me some originality.well just got my ipod back total happiness ive got the groove flowing through me again.though it was really tiring just deleting and adding more songs into it as damn my memory was just erased owell life sucks doesnt it.gonna start mugging again on monday.hurray study bug some and bite me yet again please.and this one goes out to all my bitches out there I MISS YOU!you know who you are.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

10:47 PM

it's over!yes it is indeed finally over such a great intense flow of satisfaction just flows through me right now boy i guess im just happy that's it's over but now the bad part i guess it's the results i NEED to do well.alrights new resolution which starts off from now.i'm so going to just mug till my ass drops man.i need to get a SINGLE DIGIT.gosh i think i'll just cry if i were to get anything worst than that for my o levels well ok maybe perhaps just anything above eleven points and i will be superbly satisfied already.i really need to get into the course which i want.i do not want to have to repeat my o levels.honestly i think that is a really sad case.especially when you just do not learn from your lesson earlier.owells their lost like i said not my problem.anyway i'm really starting to miss my life before july i really want it back.that sense of utter freedom where in your mind you just have this mentality that o levels and prelims are just a long way more.i liked that life it just seemed as though i had not a single worry in the world where time would just stand still for me while i carried on doing my thing and just basically having the time of my life.unlike now where each day is just a struggle to see how many formulas and facts can you cram in or how many questions have you done and how many past year papers have you completed.things has changed well in fact so many people have changed.not sure if it is for the better though.though i highly doubt so.i guess nowadays what matters most is not how many friends you have but how many friends you really do treasure.lucky for me i have two wonderful friends whom i can NEVER live without.what they did for me on my birthday was just so lovely.i hope everything can just remain as what it is right now as i so never want our friendship to die away ever.it is just too dear.and once again i'm really sorry about all that happened last year.please forgive me babe (: anyway i need to go shopping yet again.what's on my list?jeans,handbags and i need to get a new deck of cards hmmm anyone willing so treat them to me?pretty please?
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


2:31 AM

i have no idea what has gotten into me but guess what i have agreed to get together with ahem.dont ask me why as i myself have not a clue too.but ya he really does treat me well and all and yes he is a pretty nice guy so i guess it is going to be pretty nice well i hope that is.anyway let's just hope that all goes well this time otherwise it'll be so what the hell again.yes my awful past if i can add he was the worst honestly.how i really pity his current girlfriend you so need all the luck in the world.HAHA.owell chemistry today was super shitty probably that's cause i just really could not understand the questions though no doubt i found paper one rather easy but paper two now that was the total killer i mean seriously i almost died from it.the way the manipulated the question was just a total head scratcher.honestly i kept asking myself just exactly what were they asking me about.gosh i really do hope that i still will be able to obtain my various as and all.i need to do well though i just somehow cannot seem to be able to motivate myself to study which is bad.i really want to do well man but i just dont seem to know how to be able to produce the results and do as well as i am able to do.i have not reached my total capability which is a pity as i am sure i can do much better than what i am already doing.honestly getting a b i think is bad.i need to see more as.i really want to be like laura.her scores were just so mindblowing it will be totally amazing if i am able to produce marks like hers.gosh that would be the day in which you will see me singing and dancing up and down the streets.anyways gotta go do some physics boy i so suck at it but like everyone keeps telling me do not give up so yes strive for the best baby yes indeed strive for the best.let's just hope such really do happen.so longs suckers
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Saturday, September 16, 2006

8:18 AM

omg today was really hilarious rina and i both were on the phone just now talking about that we were both going to the airport and all and imagine if you actually saw vann there like how crazy will it be.the funniest thing was that vann actually went to the airport.think about it three different people with three different purposes yet going to the same place at the same time.omg you might think this is total retardedness but seriously it was just so hilarious we couldnt stop laughing for what seemed like hours yea it was really really cool.bought more mooncake yet again.no doubt it has even been featured in the newspaper about how many calories is contained in one big mooncake i just cannot stop myself from eating them as omg it is just so heavenly.but come to think of it 1000 calories in just one mooncake is pretty much insane talk about those people who can just wallop like two to three at one go now that's what i call really insane.owells three more papers more to go till im FINALLY done with my prelims boy i am so not prepared at all.everything is just bouncing off me.ahhh this so sucks.anyway havent had much things to blog about lately.boy i'm so square but owells.infectious is on tonight and dammit i'm not there ): uber sad please.anyway i'm still wondering should i go for disco inferno on 5th dec or should i go for flow.gosh im still wondering and juggling the pros and cons on which to go for.but one thing for sure is that i really dont intend on selling anymore.yes everybody jessica has finally left the building so please stop bugging her.i dont know i guess im just so sick of all the pressure and stress that i have basically just given up.many tell me that perhaps it's cause im not trying hard enough well i guess you cant blame me for having fucked up sellers somebody please help me to kill them please.gosh i will so appreciate that.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


3:09 AM

dad's back from vietnam today how perfect just nice to bring me to ishop tomorrow to get my bloody ipod fixed.yes that's right guys my ipod died like on me.for fuck it cannot even play anything much say even on.talk about living life without music trust me from the experience which i am experiencing now it really is what you can call unbarable.everything has just become so darn quiet and dull.ahhh i really cannot take it anymore i'm just going to go crazy thanks to my bloody ipod.shite i think i'm so going to become depressed yet again.and yes i mean really depressed my friends.i'm becoming yet so slack again.my mind's just clouded with simply too many things that it's just becoming so urgghhhh i need theraphy now.so going to screw up my prelims thank you very much though no doubt i really am TRYING and i really mean that i am trying really hard indeed so please do not say that i am notputting in any efforts at all cause if you say such well then screw you.i miss shopping with cordelia tan yue.let's go shopping NOW!i need a nice big white bag.HAHA.you rock la biatch.going to head to the airport now to pick dad up.yes how sad he is already a grown man but he cannot come home himself.men.HAHA.useless.o wells dont take that to heart it's just a sweeping statement of mine suckers.rina's going to the airport too.hurray let's just crash the airport and make it ours babe.let's just paint the town red and tell everyone that we both just rule.crap shit's gone in my head and i'm spewing crap.owells so longs suckers
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, September 14, 2006

7:50 PM

omigawd!guess what i just heard the funniest thing ever "i'm a player,watch me."seriously but do you yourself own a mirror?notice one thing you are firstly fat,ugly,with crooked teeth,bad education,no charisma.so seriously a player?who would want you the reason on why people date you is that you are one in which you need no commitment for in other words you sure are a fine thing to play with.seriously so stop going around telling people you are a player when in fact you are just simply one big fat joke and seriously why do you even like have to go around telling everyone i am your girlfriend when EXCUSE ME we are not even together so honestly why dont you just go and fucking get a life and what about you bragging that you were selling like 100tickets for me like o my god you sold like NONE for nuts cant believe you actually still had the guts to call me at night asking for guestlists.like fuck you who the hell would give you.dickhead.what's with you and your ego man i really want someone to prick it so bad that you will be scarred for life and i would just stand there laughing o right i can easily just tell your girlfriend that you are cheating on her what's her name again lexx i suppose think that would be really fun.seriously man please stop going around tellling everyone lies which indirectly link to me.and stop taking all those credit which is done and made so totally wonderful by other people.you cant do shit and stop thinking that you are so popular and you know him you know her.well please some of them are my friends and i asked some if they knew you and they were just like who the fuck is that.so please stop presuming that you are so popular it's your friends who are popular not you so stop bragging about the people you know when actually you just dont.HA and player indeed boy im so just going to laugh straight into your face the next time i see you.anyway rich?rich my ass your dad is just a senior lecturer i mean seriously the pay is not high so stop telling everyone that your just so fucking rich and all when you are so NOT.gosh you are just so urghhh i just dont know what to say i just found out so many things about you to think of it i actually thought of you as a friend at first yet you used my name in vain thank you so much for nothing.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


1:30 AM

alrights prelims are here WONDERFUL.alrights i'm just being sarcastic im sure you know that but owells today's lit unseen was the ultimate killer honestly though on the surface i seem to roughly get the idea but it's just too deep and that made it rather difficult for me to interpret.thus my answer was like uber short think about it i only wrote 2 and a quarter page that is so bad.probably the shortest lit answer which i have ever written so far.well the english teacher part was averagish let's just say i stoned at the questin for awhile as honestly i really did not expect such a question to actually come out so i was how do i say it perhaps kind of shocked at the sight of it.though honestly the one and a half hour is definitely too short as even though my answer was like four pages long i still have not completed it.but unfortunately due to the massive time constraint i had to end it off there and then.pity isnt it or else i personally feel that i could have came out with a much better answer for that question.math was only counted as so-so.i left 11marks blank so yes tell me about it i know that is uber bad but im sorry i just really did not know how to solve the questions they were just simply way too confusing that you can just die staring at it.two and a half not enough make it three.i am starting to get irritated with certain people these days seriously ever heard of such a word called originality.yes no doubt about that i cant stand people to keep repeating what others say and use that as their "own" personal opinion and that's "my" idea no seriously you just got to get a life.yes i know sometimes i really do show that i do not like someone by just my actions but im really sorry you know i just cannot help myself.no hard feelings though as like i said that is MY OWN opinion so screw you.owells it's either just me or it's simply stress ahhh dammit.o drama exam went pretty well yesterday i got like a bloody life story from my examiner talk about BORING but yea just smile and pretend you are enjoying it.overall not too bad he laughed at me like three times.ASS.i wonder is that supposed to be good or bad.woots three cheers for voice projection it was really good yesterday.talk about happiness.well hopefully i can do better than the rest.ya i wish but yea just hopefully man as i never have gotten the highest before.anyway seven down four more to go.press on bitches!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Thursday, September 07, 2006

8:54 PM

damn why does everyone just think that i will always be out there hitting the clubs?dang i have changed yeapp now i have become nerd shit who just stays at home and study yes admit it jessica has finally turned good.gosh this is the last day of our school holidays boy this is just so bad.i still have not had my fun yet well or more so i did not have any fun at all.gosh this so sucks and now is the last day already.aint this bad as come to think of it just one more day after school starts and it's my chinese prelims.damn i so have not even studied for it.there is just so much to study and go through but just so little time.dang this is getting just way too depressing not to mention the drama lessons which i have to rush to very soon.gotta blast will carry on updating later.
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

11:13 PM

blast every single nitty gritty detail is just bouncing off my brain.i dont seem to be able to recall everything i have learnt or much say memorized it is just starting to get really texting as drama exam is in one week and so is my prelims and the bad part is i cannot register anything even though now is probable one of the most brucial times of my life yet nothing just seems to register.honestly i am scared.i am scared of this whole entire she-bang.i am scared that i will not do as well as i have expected and all.this is when i am so starting to feel the heat and i do not like it one bit.in fact how do i say it but all these just scares me.i do not like being thrown into a situation where i am vulnerable to the various things around me like how right now my entire life,future career and yada yada just depends on this year itself.come to think of it just one slip and who knows where would i end up in next year.admit it we all are just afraid of the same thing as i am sure we would not want that one faithful mistake to ever come back and haunt us again.sigh talk about drama drama drama you guys aint seen nothing yet imagine the massive intensity which will happen once this week is over i think i can just break down and cry even though i am in like a circus or something.honestly i really wish i can just let all these just past by me right now so i will not be able to experience the pain and tireness of everything.i guess this year is indeed a massive one indeed.sudddenly it just feels like nothing else matters i just have to get past this year and it will be one big massive milestone over i want to carry a lighter load.is someone willing to take over my place?anyway to all you sexayes out there dont even bother trying to reach me as my phone is officially dead for this year yeapp none of you guys will actually be able to reach me from now all.now that's what i call experiencing the simple life aint that right miss hilton?sasha's gone for now and jessica is sad.i wonder how did she find my supposedly bore-free method.HAHA.now everyone just go "awwww" you know i am such a nice person.counting down to the end of the year bitches.shut up just admit you cannot wait for it to come too.drama yet again tomorrow.the horror and dammit why do i have to go back to school even though it is like the school holidays?
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;


10:08 PM

happy birthday to me,happy birthday to me,happy birthday to jessica!happy birthday to me!woots finally my sweet sixteen is here though it is not certainly a nice one but owells thank god for the loves of my life they made it so special for me.woke up with a HUGE bouqeut of blood red roses.awww how sweet thanks mom.after that my lovely bitches rina and vann came over to "pick me up"heh no actually i was late but yea it was so sweet of them thanks rina for the lovely dior lipgloss and sexaye bracelet awww you even carved my name on it.thanks vann for that sexaye lil balloon too.i so cannot imagine you guys in my life.thank you so much for everything and especially for that dear card that just totally lit up my day.devil wears prada after that it was the most awesome show ever.couture babyy say it with me haute couture what can ever beat that?i absolutely love those on screen clothes especially that awesome looking furcoat damn i so want to get one now.yes i know i am materialistic but i just cannot help it.guess that is just in my blood.owells i had like 7slices of cakes that day 3from secret recipe and 4 from raffles hotel dammit im so going to grow fat but owells it was my birthday.went out with SASHA yay high tea at raffles hotel babyy dammit why must equinox but closed?why why why?i miss having my high teas remember those good ol' days miss raj?i miss them high tea date again sometime soon ya and you must must go!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;

Monday, September 04, 2006

3:20 AM

boy what a day it has been today both scarily interesting yet totally straight out whack down at the same time.now that is just what i call fun babyy.let me relive this day again.i like.woke up like uber early this morning just to rush down to the hospital for my ct scan.thought i was so late but i ended up having to wait half an hour more just for everything to get ready.sigh since when were hospitals ever on time?they certainly should learn how to be on time really soon as just the waiting totally kills me.had this jab on my hand which technically was meant to be just one jab but how did i know once i went into the scanner thingy the whole thing started making wierd crazy noises,my head started to hurt real bad and soon this guy just came running in saying that he was going to give me yet another jab and he didnt even give me sufficient time for me to prepare for it.asshole.it was painful please thank god they finally lowered the pressure before my vein just burst out from whatever they were injecting into my system.met up with sasha again just now.boy today was really fun definitely something memorable.what can i say today is icecream day.yes we had like this whole bunch of icecream today so much so that i was actually full just on icecream talk about how much we had but still it was really fun so no complains at all.after that how can we actually end a day without some camera whoring and yes we did camera whore ALOT.let's see what can you say about 40over pictures in just a matter of 10minutes.yea babyy that is just how much we girls just love hogging the camera.so wanted to do more but sadly time did not permit.awwww.i am so going insane over my end of year trip that is just something i so cannot wait for.shopping,more shopping and need i say more but even more shopping.we are going to hog the streets of england.watch out world here we come.but dang now all ive gotta do is look for a super thick sweater.did i ever mention i was scared of the cold.pfffts.owells to everyone out there do catch the devil wears prada it is definitely the best show ever.see meryl streep at her best yet not to mention the totally flat out sexy clothes say it with me couture.yeapp now we're talking (:
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;